It has been too long since I posted anything. Things have been very busy at the parish with the end of school, graduations, and now I am preparing something for a group of nuns I will be addressing today and tomorrow. (First time I have done this, by the way, so please pray that what I have prepared will be adequate.) I haven’t the time to write something original but I wanted to make some kind of post. Today’s selection is from Lewis. He asks many hard questions which would be good for us all to consider.
Lewis, grieving the death of his wife, Joy:
They tell me H. is happy now, they tell me she is at peace. What makes them so sure of this? I don’t mean that I fear the worst of all. Nearly her last words were, ‘I am at peace with God.’ She had not always been. And she never lied. And she wasn’t easily deceived, least of all, in her own favour. I don’t mean that. But why are they so sure that all anguish ends with death? More than half the Christian world, and millions in the East, believe otherwise. How do they know she is ‘at rest’? Why should the separation (if nothing else) which so agonizes the lover who is left behind be painless to the lover who departs?
‘Because she is in God’s hands.’ But if so, she was in God’s hands all the time, and I have seen what they did to her here. Do they suddenly become gentler to us the moment we are out of the body? And if so, why? If God’s goodness is inconsistent with hurting us, then either God is not good or there is no God: for in the only life we know He hurts us beyond our worst fears and beyond all we can imagine. If it is consistent with hurting us, then He may hurt us after death as unendurably as before it.
Sometimes it is hard not to say, ‘God forgive God.’ Sometimes it is hard to say so much. But if our faith is true, He didn’t. He crucified Him.
A Grief Observed, by C.S. Lewis